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On Returning to a Place You Once Loved

01/28/2018 by Kristin Addis 4 Comments

Staring out at the glistening white sand bar, watching as the tides and waves played their game on Koh Yao Yai that morning, the only emotion present in me was bliss.

I knew this feeling. I’d felt it before in Cambodia while cycling through Angkor Wat at sunset with my new friends. I’d felt it while watching a Manta Ray pass right over my head while hyperventilating into my regulator and crying tears of joy at the same time in Komodo National Park. I’d felt the electricity of it run through me while watching the sunrise over a glacier lagoon in Patagonia after the toughest downhill hike of my life.

It’s total relaxation of the body. It’s a moment of ease. It’s being present with every sight and sound and truly feeling it, fully.

This is the gift that traveling, every now and then, gives so generously. I’d missed this.

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Loved this feeling!

It’s a little worrisome returning to a place you once loved, isn’t it? I wrote about these fears in the weeks before arriving here in Thailand again, where it all began for me over five years ago.

What if it changed? What if I changed too much to enjoy it anymore? What if it felt like jamais vu where even though the place is familiar, nothing else is? Everything feels new and each person you meet is a stranger.

Would I come to find that since I’m not exactly a backpacker anymore, Thailand wouldn’t suit me?

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Caught 26/30 sunrises this month (for real!)

I’m so glad to say that, at least in this case, yes, you absolutely can return to a place and love it just as much as you always did.

The key was just in approaching it differently. Before, I mostly stuck to the backpacker trail since I didn’t know a soul and wanted to do everything as cheaply as possible.

I slept under mosquito nets in $2/night dorms, sweated my face off on 24 hour bus rides, and was often the only foreigner on the cargo ferries. I’ll never forget the thrill of whipping through Borneo on a motorbike or eating my first plate of street food, and I’ll always cherish those dharma bum years. I’m not so much a backpacker anymore but those experiences made me who I am.

Thailand will always represent the portal to this side of me that I might not have otherwise discovered.

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At the retreat center, New Life Foundation, in Chiang Rai.

It has been almost entirely different this time, though. For starters, I think my dorm days are behind me, and have largely stayed in private rooms and hotels this time around.

I also started things off at a silent meditation retreat, almost five years later to the day of my first ever (and only ever) other Vipassana experience.

However this meditation retreat was a lot different. I’d never meditated before the previous one, and this time, I’ve had all of the years since then to become more spiritual.

It’s kind of funny, before I was searching out the party crowd and this time I sought out silence. Yet it was the perfect way to kick off this Thailand trip – one that took me on a road trip with my new team member, Ashley, and my adventure tour partner, Pete, to some of Thailand’s local, hidden places.

That’s something I never could have done before. It’s kind of crazy to think about how this time, we were all on a road trip because we’d met through this blog. Kristin 5 years ago only dreamed of that possibility.

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A fantastic discovery in Northern Thailand.

I was a backpacker before through and through. I took pride in every dollar saved, loved staying in dorms in hostels, wanted to head to chilled out places that, while not super built up and busy yet, were undoubtedly there to serve tourists, like Tonsai and Pai.

I still cherish those places, but this time, I was happy to show up and only see locals, or to head to a beach on Koh Yao Yai and only see a few others there – no reggae music blasting (I do still love me some reggae, though!).

So to answer the question I was unsure about previously – yes, Thailand is awesome no matter what age you are. It’s all in how you approach it.

I have a feeling this won’t be my last visit. It’s never felt more like the Land of Smiles to me than it does now as I close this chapter on another love affair with Thailand.

Next up, it’s another solo journey to Indonesia. I can’t wait to see what’s in store.

Solo travel stories: How does it feel to return to a place you once loved after years? I recently traveled back to Southeast Asia, a parallel universe that's dear to me. Has things changed? Have I changed? Be My Travel Muse | solo female travel | southeast asia travel in 30s | travel stories
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Kristin Addis is the founder and CEO of Be My Travel Muse, a resource for female travelers all around the world since 2012. She's traveled solo to over 65 countries and has brought over 150 women on her all-female adventure tours from Botswana to the Alaskan tundra.

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  1. Marta Kulesza says

    01/28/2018 at 10:31 am

    This is exactly how I feel returning to New Zealand next month. It’s a country that I love so much and I really hope that it’ll be everything I remember 3 years later. I guess if you don’t go, you’ll never know!!!

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    • Kristin says

      01/28/2018 at 7:45 pm

      So true! Plus, I think NZ is not changing as rapidly as Thailand so hopefully you don’t return to a place and find it overrun with the wrong kind of tourists.

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  2. GG says

    01/28/2018 at 3:49 pm

    Wishing you a successful return trip to Indonesia and many new fun adventures off the beaten path! Glad you had a great time traveling with people you met through the blog and now in your employ. True friendships seem to blossom from here, as you and readers share each other’s genuine personal experiences and bond through that in addition to common interests, plus mutual admiration. Glad you are reaping what you sow. BTW enjoyed the “Bittersweetness of Returning Home For A Traveler” recommended post. It is a bonus to have that friend support and family there for you at your original stomping grounds, even with the quirks (puns in our family, don’t get me started!) and even when you are now independent and blossomed in your own life and profession. Best wishes.

    P.S. Butterfly? The closest was San Diego, CA, whether it be Mission Beach or La Jolla, I don’t know what it is about the beaches there. I just fly away from where I’m at (went for work each time) and land myself there and with big smile ear to ear, grab maybe a pizza and just sit and watch all the activity (never too crowded) as the sun sets a beautiful golden yellow/orange with the soothing sound of the gently breaking waves at perfect air temperatures with just enough of a breeze. It doesn’t tire with each visit. (my favorite souvenir: “Enjoy California” coca-cola t-shirt)

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    • Kristin says

      01/28/2018 at 7:45 pm

      I love San Diego as well. It’s so beautiful and the weather is perfect. Yes, I’m very grateful to have such support from my friends and family!

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